Something GOOD!

Can you believe it?!

Jamie and I looked at a house, still in Johnson, directly across the street from LittleE's daycare (how cool is THAT?) and fell in LOVE with it! If all goes well, we'll be moving in for 8/1. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY There are several reasons I've been wanting to move and I'll go into those details at a later date. Just know that this is SO FRIGGIN COOL!

and...............are you ready for this? The BEST part? .............................. I can have a dog!! yup, a D.O.G!! woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooo I've felt like there's been a huge hole in my life for the last year not having a dog.....can't WAIT to find my next "baby".

The house is OLD OLD (very "me". Love the character of old homes) but recently remodeled and I LOVE the inside, LOVE the layout, and the outside's cute too! VERY close to the main road, so that'll be an adjustment but it'll be worth it.

Gotta run and get LittleE ready for the day, but wanted to stop here and say "HEY! It's a GOOD day!" :)

Nothing new

and exciting. But I always feel guilty when I don't post!

Jamie's home and driving me crazy.....is it time for him to go yet? HA, j/k!! Love you baby.

Truly can't think of anything else! Will come back if I do.......I know, I know....more pictures Buffy! Get off my back!

funny-sunny day

On a happier note...

......YoungestA graduated 6th grade last night! He was so stinking cute and oh-so nervous. Each student had to give a little speech and any of you that know him, know that this would send him over the edge. He waited to be last, no just getting it over with for him HAHA, and did great!!

He'll be heading to the "big" school next year (middle level/high school) and I'm sad but excited for him.

I took some pictures, and should be able to get to them today.....be back later!

My unexpected blessing....

.....in a moment of darkness.

On Friday, Gram was unresponsive all day. She was having lots of morphine and sedatives; the main goal to keep her comfortable as we waited for her time. Her little body was working so hard for each breath, but as per her wishes, she was only getting oxygen....no other help at all. When the Dr came in that morning, he said it wouldn't be long....and when he came in at 5pm he admitted that he was a little shocked she was still with us. Her heartbeat was as strong as ever.

At about 11pm there was only 4 people there at the time. Myself, an uncle and two aunts. Gram suddenly opened her eyes and looked right at me. I said "Gram? I'm here. I love you and I'm SO proud of you" She smiled at me and said "I love you too". Of course that was my breaking point. I felt bad for letting her see me in such shape.....I had always envied her strength....and there I was, an emotional wreck. Anyone who knew her, knows what I'm trying to say. She was a tiny woman, but a firecracker. VERY healthy except the last two weeks and acted anything BUT her age of 82.

After about 15 minutes, we were surprised she was still so coherent. She communicated with us for an hour and twenty minutes!! What a wonderful experience and I truly feel blessed that I was there. We asked if she was hurting and she was able to tell us no. We told her that Papa had been with her for 12 hours during the day, but had had to leave to get his meds and some sleep at the nursing home. We reassured her that at 7am, he'd be back. She asked if it was "her time" and it was so hard to tell her yes. But it was what she needed to hear and did not frighten her in the least. Knowing that it was "ok" was what she needed.

At 3am or so, I couldn't stay awake....I tried standing, walking, pacing, anything to keep me awake. I SO did not want to leave.....but suddenly I was literally sleeping on my feet....and her heartrate was as strong as ever. I decided to leave for a few hours sleep, check on the kiddos, and go back up. I regret terribly that I wasn't able to be there.....

At about 6am, she opened her eyes again and said "it's time, go get Papa" and she was gone at about 7:30. Papa was there, and truly, that's all that matters to me.

I cannot explain the peace she was able to give me while my heart was breaking....to tell me that she loved me; to tell me that she wasn't in pain; to relay the impression she was "ok" with passing......though my heart is breaking, I also have the answer to the questions that all to many people have when they lose a loved one.

Gram has ALWAYS, from my time of meeting her 6 years of age, been there for me; accepted me as her grandchild and as a person; loved me; stuck up for me (and recently for Alyssa); loved me no matter what. I will miss her and her influence on me the rest of my life. I'm so happy to have had such a wonderful grandmother and role model.

I am so grateful.

So sad.....

.....my Gram passed away at approx. 8am this morning. It was very sudden, she's only been sick a couple weeks, seriously sick just a couple days. If it had to happen, I'm glad it was quick for her. But I'm going to miss her so much. She was such a wonderful, strong woman. I do have more to say, but need to drop OldestA off at graduation where she's an usher this year. Will be back later.

Real quick....

.....my laptop crashed this morning......has NOT been a good day. I've got another for a few months till I can save up for a new one......

Trying to get everything set up on this one....then will be back in full blogger mode.....well, since I'm a single parent till the 21st, not quite "full" mode, but close.

Be back soon with pics of Youngest A's trip!

Good-bye!

YoungestA and I are leaving this morning for Boston! Will be back LATE Sunday night, and then I have to work Monday, and I have a game that night. OMG, when am I going to have time to blog? EEEEEEEK

My baby boy.....

.....is 12 today. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa When the hell did THAT happen?

Look at him in that picture!!! WHY oh WHY do they have to grow up so fast? I'm a bit sad today if you couldn't tell? (and WHY on earth did I dress my children so wierd? I didn't think so at the time, but GEEZ!) Anyways, he's gone to the movie's with his Dad and Aaryn and we'll get the entire weekend together, just him and I (ok, and his whole class) but I'm beginning to think it might be ok. Will DEFINATELY let you know.

OldestA is having the worst day so far, since surgery. Alot of pain (the block's worn off) and she's VERY queasy. She almost passed out on me getting from the bathroom to the couch this morning. Scared the you-know-what outta me! Poor kid. I feel so helpless. I don't care if she IS almost 17, she's still my baby and she hurts darnit! I sure hope it's feeling a bit better before I leave with YoungestA. I know Grammy and Grampy will take wonderful care of her, but I still wish it could be me.

Ok, I just got done playing ball....REALLY need to go shower and find some food.

BYE!

Long road....

....to recovery....but we're finally on the right route! LOL Surgery yesterday went very well. She was nervous, I was a wreck, but we made it through. A small scare before surgery with some meds. They gave her an antibiotic IV that in 15% of people that are allergic to penicillan (her!) would react to it. Yup, you guessed it, she did. Scared the crap outta me. From her shoulders up, she was covered in red welts. They gave her a dose of Benedryl and it cleared right up. The Benedryl along with the nice "cocktail" they gave her a bit before and she was pretty stupid. Loved it!

The Dr said her surgery went very smoothly (about 1.5 hours) and that they didn't need to repair the meniscus as it tore in a "good" spot and would heal on it's own. They reconstructed the ACL with no complications.

She got a nerve block to numb her entire left leg, and general to knock her out. The nerve block is JUST wearing off now (36 hours later) and it was only supposed to last 10-13 hours. Lucky her! But not now, it's really hurting and the pain meds are coming in handy now.

I'm getting up every 2 hours to change her ice packs, which of course wakes her up, so we're both pretty tired, but it'll get better.

That's about it. Here a couple pics of her "healing" as she calls it. The first is right when we got home. She doesn't even remember COMING home. But she did want 'bear'. Tough girl. HAHA The 2nd was this morning. What more could a girl want as long as she's got a laptop and her cell within reach. But look at how pale she is! Poor kiddo.

OK dammit, they posted at the top and won't move for me. Deal with it people, it's close to midnight for this mama. Love ya!