Tomorrow's the day.....

.....and I'm not skeered....


Gotta be at the hospital at 6:30am.....glad to get this over with and look forward to an ankle that works better than this one....but.....

Nothing new....

.....but wanted to check in. Count down to surgery and I'm REALLY dreading it now. Jamie's going to be gone for 2 weeks; 2 weeks after my surgery. I'll be on crutches and alone with 4 kids. I'm scared to death about that most of all. He has been told that he may get his next rank soon after deployment if he finishes the school he started a few months ago. I know that's good; just bad timing.

PLUS he's leaving day after tomorrow for the week. Some work that needs to be done is Massachusetts. Yay for me.

Dang, do I wallow in self pity tonight? Someone slap me! LittleE's just in a really hard phase right now. She's so hard to deal with in EVERYTHING. She wants to negotiate everything and there's no happy medium to make her happy. She either gets HER way, or has a complete meltdown, screaming fit. Needless to say, she's having lots of meltdowns.

She is loving school. But because it's only 3 days a week, that causes more fits. If she wakes up and says "is it a school day?" (which she does every morning) and you cringe and say "no honey, sorry" she screams at the top of her lungs and is a bear getting ready for daycare. UGH

So that's about it. This will be my last full week of work for awhile. Have lots of things to catch up on there....but not sure why I bother. Nothing will get done while I'm gone, so I'll have tons to catch up on again when I get back. (damn, another gripe!) Maybe I shouldn't have gotten on here tonight. LOL


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Ok, dammit. I give up. I'm tired and have to get up at 4:30am. But I THINK if you click on "view all images" you'll be taken to the slideshow.

Why I can't figure this crap out is beyond me. I normally don't have many issues with computers but I'm hating Blogger alot sometimes.

Nighters!!

While driving in the car....

.....LittleE in the backseat, me in the front.....

E: Mama? When are you going to have another baby?

me: (thinking:EEEEEK!) Mommy's not having any more babies E.

E: (all sad and pathetic) You're not? Why not?

me: (remember, Jamie's broken ;) ) well, you better ask Daddy.

E: But God makes babies.....(insert whiney voice) and he's running out!

me: (no response.....total silence)

Surgery rescheduled....

.....till 9/30.

I saw the surgeon on Monday, surgery was scheduled for Tuesday. He explained to me (finally) exactly what is going on. There is a piece of bone that has been broken off and it IS what's causing the pain and my ankle to lock up. He said simply that he'll be going in and taking that out. I said "well that sounds easy". He smiled and told me he wasn't done yet. No, of course not....how could I be so optimistic?

He said that he cannot leave the bone with a "pothole" (his word, not mine, LOL) It would leave my ankle unstable and painful, especially later in life. Crud.

There's nothing to do to fill that "hole" except this: He's going to drill holes in the bone at that point, causing the bone to bleed. That will form scar tissue that will fill in that spot and I should be good to go. Sounds like a good time. Blah. If he were able to just take that piece of bone out and be done, I'd be putting weight on that foot within a couple days. But now I'll be on crutches, non weight bearing for 4-6 weeks. This means that I cannot work full time. My job simply is on my feet 75% of the time. Well ALL the time really, but I can do a few hours sitting. Hoping they'll let me work part time during that period. Cross your fingers.

I explained to him that I had NO idea that I was even scheduled this quickly and wasn't even planning on coming in to see him till the 15th. He was as irritated as I was. He suggested that we wait it out for 3 weeks; giving my employer time to get coverage. He said that it does have to be done soon, as it's getting weaker each day. If it locks up before then, I'll call and he said he'd get the surgery in sooner.

That's it, that's my story. Life sucks sometimes and I'm just trying to suck it up and drive on.

Though I hate to admit it....

.......now I'm glad the surgery is so soon. My ankle's killing me. Been feeling odd; a little more each day....and yesterday at work it really popped. Seized up again, but was able to get it back. Now it aches like hell. Definately not as bad as it could be (I can still walk on it!) but it's just going to keep getting worse if we don't fix it.

Still worried sick about finances without me working....I have no idea what we'll do....can't think about it, can't think about it, can't think about it........

Jamie's been very busy with Guards. Blech....they're already getting them ready for deployment and it makes me sick. This is his 2nd weekend gone in 3 weeks. The only good thing is that it's extra $$ that I don't really budget in.....so that REALLY helps right now. Yesterday they had dentist detail.....some of the guys had almost all their teeth pulled! ouchy! Luckily, Jamie had just one filling that needed to be repaired. phew! Today is filling out tons of paperwork; medical crap; legal crap; will; all that fun stuff. I hate it...it makes it all real.

Ok, off to feed the LittleE-monster. Hopefully will be back today with some trip pics!! Cross your fingers!

Surgery? and didn't even know it!

Ugh. So, OldestA had an appointment w/ her surgeon yesterday....just a follow up. She's doing great. He tested the strength of the new ligament and said it feels just like her other knee. YAY! She can start light jogging; working up slowly and hitting the gym to build those muscles back up. No twisting/cutting motions yet. Another follow up early November and be fitted for her brace to wear when she's playing ball.

So we go out and make the next appointment; great. While we were there, I asked about my appointment with the surgeon for the 15th, just wanted to confirm. She looks up my name and says "oh, you have a phone-appointment for pre-op with the nurse at the hospital today at 10am".....ummmmm, HUH?

I said "are you sure? I'm not even scheduled for surgery yet. I haven't even seen the surgeon yet"

"yes, you're scheduled for surgery on the 9th and are seeing the surgeon the 8th" .......again....."huh?"

I said "wow, it would have been nice to know about this. The last I was told, I had my first appointment with the surgeon on the 15th and it would go from there. What kind of surgery is it? What's the recoop' time? etc etc?"

"you'll find all that out when you see him on the 8th"

"well gee, thanks. That makes it easy for my employer now doesn't it?" (actually didn't say that part outloud.....but sure wanted to!)

So that's the scoop! UGH I really want to put it off, we can't afford for me to be out of work right now. BUT, if I put it off, we REALLY can't afford for me to be out of work during the heating season w/ fuel prices. I know I can't wait indefinately, as my ankle has been acting up recently....I think the steroid injection is slowly wearing off.......WHAT TO DO?!

Oh, they're calling a Ankle Arthroscopy. Just tiny incisions....taking out those two pieces of bone that are being PITAS. Then checking to see where those came from and making further repairs if necessary. Hopefully it's nothing too intensive and I can get back to work within just a few days.......cross your fingers!!